ok a little more info about me ive been married for almost 3 years now and hes turning into a total dick saying that hes thinking of leaving me but hes not sure then its that we are "seperated" but he still wants to bang me and we might get back together. but hes not a typical guy when it comes to sex its once every week or 2 and not very good. ive gotten very fat and am exercising 3-5 times a week and have lost like 3 pounds in 3 months. i recently had cancerous cells removed and i had a tumor in my leg that was removed about 2 years ago it was an agressive benign tumor so it wouldnt matastisize (sp) but it spread through feelers that were litterally ripping apart my muscles from the inside and they wouldnt give me anything but IBU 800 till after it was removed so that was fun. but the weirdest thing about it all is im not that down about any of it actually lately ive been in a real good mood maybe its the new bipolar meds im on or maybe its that i just said fuck it and am learning to let it all just slide off but im starting to feel like my happy old self again. i still have a little bit of my anger problem but its so much better than it was. although i am a little worried about the fact that earlier today my brain kinda glitched and for no reason at all my brain screamed shoot your husband. it was only a split second but it kinda freaked me out. i dont know if its the post partem or the meds but wow that fucked with me.my main issue right now isnt my ass of a husband its my weight im going to try to change my eating habits some more but if i keep eating healthier im going to become a vegitarian and that would suck i love meat especially a thick bloody steak yum yum. and also i would like a little advice if possible ive been doing my nails alot lately and the ring finger on my left hand always gets fucked up itll be painted all nice then something always touches or rubs against it and fuckes it all up any ideas on how i can avoid this today i thought they were all dry and i had to use a towel to open a dirty bittle and now it looks stuccuto. but that was the only one. wel i think im done ranting i need to finish out tommorows schedule later alls